Amnesia (2026) Monosphere 🇩🇪 Germany

One step closer to the onset
One step further from the truth

Time folds, not forward or backward
But into itself, a spiral of haze
I wade through its currents, untethered
Chasing nothing but the echo of days

(Right) I was meant to walk this unsung road
(Wrong) But the map was drawn in shifting code
(Right) The silence holds the answers I seek
(Wrong) Yet it drowns the words before I speak

A thin veil trembles between here and nowhere
The air is heavy with colors I can’t see
Each step I take unravels the edges
Of a path that was never meant for me
Amplify my misery

Freefall retreat
Abide deceit

Shadows stretch, a silhouette of what's left, a corset
Moments bend under its weight
I’m running out of breath

Time carves its toll on every skin
Leaving marks where hope once thrived

Yet in the hollows of these moments spent
There is a pulse still beating, though it's dimmed
A relentless squeeze that won't let go
But in its grip, I find a strange relief

Retracing my steps through the labyrinth that I have built
Her laughter lingered on the edge of sound
Echoes of a life I tried to drown
The mirrors cracked

Reflecting fragments of a self I buried long ago
Her presence taints the glass, yet I still feel the undertow
She whispers secrets only she could know

A voice so soft and reassuring
Weaves a tale of broken dreams and revelation
The world tilted on its axis
I was a solitary speck clinging to sanity

Planting seeds of doubt where none should grow
I want to scream, but my voice just stalls
Doubt is casting shadows over memories that should be bright
Recoup the steps to get here, time to fight or flight

So I step forward, weightless, uncertain
A breath, then another, then none
And the world folds itself around me
Like it’d been waiting all along

I step forward, leaving footprints in the dark
Not knowing if they lead toward or away
She calls my name like a prayer laced with sorrow
A hymn for the lost, the undone

Instrumental

All these voices in my head
Make my mind go numb

Well of rage

Seeking solace in the dark
So it can’t reflect the past
Ghosts that whisper in my ear
Make my mind go numb

Well of hate

Contemplate
Liberate

Silence screams, a deafening cacophony, a remnant
Poison the well
Escape reality

Crimson echoes
Shattered vows
A distant sorrow
Burn it away

Burn away
Shattered vows

She was a silhouette in strobe light
A lighthouse flickering in neon fog

I was just another shadow moving sideways
Through a tide of limbs and noise

I turned my head before I knew the reason why
Drawn by something not seen but rather sensed

The way smoke promises fire without showing you a flame
The way kings build an empire without showing you the pain

Seems like you and I
Were always meant to be
‘Til both realize
How the other thinks

Stay awake at night
Make me feel alive
Nothing will ever do
Nothing will ever change

Stay awake at night
Make me feel alive
Nothing will ever do
Nothing will ever matter

You make me feel
Like nothing, like nothing
Like nothing will ever matter

You smiled like a secret that knew it couldn’t be kept
Like a note slipped between pages no one was meant to find
I felt my pulse answer yours in uneven sentences
As if my body remembered a promise my mind never made

She was a silhouette in strobe light
A lighthouse flickering in neon fog

You make feel
Like nothing, like nothing
You make feel
Like nothing, like nothing
At all

Pull me from this twilight state
Where memories ricochet
Trace the outline of what’s real
The numbness wants to disappear

Fading echoes of the dream
My heart raced as the fragments scattered

War
This war inside my head
Twisting and turning synapses
‘Cause there’s a

War
This war inside my head
Gut-wrenching gusts of emotions
‘Cause there’s a

Asphyxiate
Hesitation that holds me back
Asphyxiate
Let courage be my shield
Let boldness be my art
And follow my gut
Where courage has tethered

Wake up
Let’s reframe the past

Now I march
With purpose wide
Amidst the dark
I find my light

This war inside my head

Limbo lingers softly
Do abide
Still I choose to say
With you I reside

A tentative dance
A fragile truce
Between memory and now
Smother the past

Wide awake
Try to look past those eyes
Wash away
Incisions better left shut

Beneath my skin is a map
Of stories etched in scars
A testament to the past
We’re both trying to revive
Seeking answers in your eyes
Your gaze lingers, then veers away

“Where did these come from?”, I ask
Your voice trembling slightly
Leaving gaps to be filled
Patch them up with lies

No more waiting, no more pause
Let’s rewrite our fatal cause

Lost on the brink of uncertainty
Yet I hold onto the warmth she gives

Give me a sign to trust
Give me a sign to mend
Give me a sign to understand the fear that’s in me

Give me a sign to trust
Give me a sign to mend
Give me a sign to understand the rage that’s in me

Give me a sign to trust
Give me a sign to mend
Give me a sign to understand the pain that’s in me

Give me a sign to trust
Give me a sign to mend
Give me a sign to understand the guilt that’s in me

Give me a sign to trust
Give me a sign to mend
Give me a sign to understand the doubt that’s in me

Give me a sign to trust
Give me a sign to mend
Give me a sign to understand the hate that’s in me

Give me a sign to trust
Give me a sign to mend
Give me a sign to understand the doubt that’s in me

Give me a sign to trust
Give me a sign to mend
Give me a sign to understand the hate that’s in me

You
Say my name
Like it is
A question
Like you are
Testing
The shape of it
On your tongue

I slowly lean towards her expecting some response yet I feel
She barely moves in any direction and searches something while
I retract my intend of embracement to regain a firm stand
She embraces the utter irony and opens her big mouth

Your voice arrives before you do
Wrapped in velvet, stained inside
Your voice folds me like paper
Sharp at the edges, blood in the folds

Words hitting every part of skin

Repression, coercion
Desperation, provocation
Alienate me, manipulate me, humiliate me, I capitulate
Submission, deception
Accusation, obfuscation
Intimidate me, devaluate me, overshadow me, I capitulate

I retreat
Words come out of her mouth

The words fall out of you
Jagged shards of glass swallowed too fast
You scream at me in a language I used to know
But the syntax is fists now
The grammar’s knees and elbows
And the punctuation breaks on my skull

There’s a pulse under the floorboards
It skips when you smile
You press your hands against my chest
And call it love

Heed my call
Rise and fall
Heed my call
Watch my life descending