Before I Turn
Immoral and Malevolent Happenings

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• 1. A Tale of Immoral and Malevolent Happenings (04:04)
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  See his hand grab his shears
  Ripping open ear to ear
  Feel the town flood with fear
  Will we leave alive from here?
  
  Drowning hopeless in a silent storm
  Nurses whispering the names that were never born
  They stitch my breath on a cuirass of stone
  Forever alone
  I'm finally going home
  Let the flames kiss every door
  Let the blood drip from the walls onto every floor
  Do you see, Director, what you haven't learned?
  If you stay for the finale you'll be getting burned
  
  Rocking back and forth
  For years I've felt my worth
  Descend to kiss the ground
  Once lost but now I'm found
  At last I dawn a grin
  I see your burning skin
  
  The echoes ache with kerosine
  Smiling with a match struck between my teeth
  
  See his hand grab his shears
  Ripping open ear to ear
  Feel the void draw him near
  Spilling thoughts no soul should hear
  
  Fall, fall, you dissolve into embers
  
  Dissolve into embers
  
  I dreamt of silence, not salvation
  Screaming God's name in strangled incantations
  
  See his hand grab his shears
  Ripping open ear to ear
  Feel the void draw him near
  Spilling thoughts no soul should hear
  Hear the flames start to sneer
  As the walls begin to sear
  Feel the town flood with fear
  Will we leave alive from here?
  
  Let the flames kiss every door
  Let the blood drip from the walls onto every floor
  I dreamt of sirens, not salvation
  Screaming God's name in strangled incantations
• 2. ...and she was beautiful (04:20)
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  A tailor and his wife
  Lost the thirst he had for life
  Lost in endless strife
  Now he's waiting, always waiting for Lavender
  
  I had it all set, a perfect wife, my family
  One kiss would lift me from misery
  'Til the man in black came to say
  "I need not her love" as he casts me away
  
  I want to see her eyes, but the color's fading
  He tried to end my life with my patience waning
  I tried to find myself in solitude with fortitude
  I've carved in the stone, "Here lies
  Arthur Rose", the path that I chose
  
  Blood is glistеning, is someone listening?
  Is someone watching my mind unwind memory?
  Blood is glistening, is someone listening?
  Someone notice the man that has killed me
  (Someone notice the man that has killed me)
  
  I see her dress like it's burned in my skull
  She lighted my heart so dull, and she was beautiful
  
  A tailor and his wife
  Lost the thirst he had for life
  And lost in endless strife
  Now he's waiting, always waiting for Lavender
  
  Just like the blackness grows, like a love that's dying
  He lets his anger show
  And with a claw of odium, he took my love from me
  
  With a vision of evil fantasy
  I think she's lost and succumbed; oh, my agony
  
  A tailor and his wife
  Lost the thirst he had for life
  And lost in endless strife
  Now he's waiting, always waiting for Lavender
  
  A tailor and his wife
  Lost the thirst he had for life
  I see her dress like it's burned in my skull
  She lighted my heart so dull, and she was beautiful
• 3. Poor Soul (03:32)
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  Poor soul
  
  It was all but a favor
  To see her life just pass on by
  What he'd give just to take her
  How he'd wait so patiently
  How she had a chance for the world on a string
  Poor soul, poor thing
  Oh, I remember everything
  
  He was in love, you see, with a pretty woman
  Had a pretty vision, what a shame 'cause
  There was this man, you see, had the tailor taken
  To become a patient, so she could be vacant
  Poor soul
  
  Everything all around him, the tailor was at peace
  The head of the asylum, he wanted everything
  And everyone who had something he loved
  He'd sacrifice his wife if it meant satisfying lust
  He'd sacrifice his wife if it meant satisfying lust
  With a baby on the way, tailor sent away
  Say goodbye, daddy
  Say goodbye to Lavender, watch your love fade away
  
  He was in love, you see, with a pretty woman
  Had a pretty vision, what a shame 'cause
  There was this man, you see, had the tailor taken
  To become a patient, so she could be vacant
  Poor soul
  
  There was this masquerade
  Far from an escapade
  He defiled her, he laughed as she died
  Tainted with malice of malevolent goodbye
  He was in love, you see, with a pretty woman
  Had a pretty vision
  
  He was in love, you see, with a pretty woman
  Had a pretty vision, what a shame 'cause
  There was this man, you see, had the tailor taken
  To become a patient, so she could be vacant
  Poor soul
  
  How she had a chance for the world on a string
  Poor soul, poor thing
  Oh, I remember everything
  How she had a chance for the world on a string
  Poor soul, poor thing
  Poor soul, poor thing
• 4. Dripping Rubies (04:54)
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  I've been lost, locked in silence
  As I take pride wielding you once again
  My friend
  Gently I exhale silence
  As I entwine fingers with steel
  Redefine purpose I have been given life
  Given a chance to find
  
  Dripping rubies fall to the ground
  Like they used me, waiting around
  While my love endures always abandoned
  Refusing to rid myself of memory
  
  With my hands, feeling warmth
  (Let me feel your warmth again)
  Like I'm home again, lost in the snow
  (Like I'm lost in the snow)
  
  I can taste it so sweet
  (So sweet you are)
  Like I'm falling in love with the end
  (Like I'm falling in love with a friend)
  
  There is a whole in the earth
  
  And like the dark, everyone is full of greed
  No empathy, nonexistent
  Coexisting with demons and ghosts
  I've come home again to see you, friends
  Oh, silver and blood
  Dripping rubies will flood
  
  Dripping rubies fall to the ground
  Like they used me, waiting around
  While my love endures, always abandoned
  Refusing to rid myself of memory
  
  Dripping rubies fall to the ground
  And I'll use these, waiting around
  For my Lavendar, but she succumbed to the coward above
  I'll kill him in front of everyone
  
  The man desires his steel, doesn't he?
  
  Steel, yes
  
  At last, my hand is complete again!
  
  Claustrophobic, I am so sick
  I have manic depressive symptoms of schizophrenics
  Immoral and malevolent happenings in
  My life have brought me to a panic
  Fuck
• 5. Wilting (03:50)
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  Whispers in the woodgrain — under the skin
  Are chasing shadows where does vengeance end?
  And now I begin a dance with time, with penance
  An hourglass or pendant
  I wear around my neck, the choke me swiftly in vain
  Feel like I'm waiting forever
  You say have patience, all good things will come to those who can wait
  Ever-swift, light as a feather
  Is my crown of guilt and burden I feel of what comes of you
  Inching closer
  
  Inching closer and closer
  
  Sitting in silence, patiently waiting for your entrance
  Live to serve, but I'm serving another sentence
  Sands of time in a desert of broken love
  Are drying out my mouth, I'm parched for your blood
  
  Everlasting hours, waiting, darkening the room
  Ever changing flower, wilting, never come to bloom
  
  Slowly wilt away
  
  Slowly wilt away
  
  A lost soul found eternity
  While embarking on a journey of blood and salvation
  A broken man found anxiety
  Lingering in the shadows of a siren's sedation
  
  Everlasting hours, waiting, darkening the room
  Ever changing flower, wilting, never come to bloom
  
  Beneath the weight of the stars, I bow — unblessed
  Each breath a psalm unsung in my chest
  The hush of hell will mock my unrest
  I reach through the dark but my grip fails the test
  
  Guess we'll have to wait
  
  Guess we'll have to wait
  
  Slowly wilt away
  
  Everlasting hours, waiting, darkening the room
  Ever changing flower, wilting, never come to bloom
  
  A lost soul found eternity
  While embarking on a journey of blood and salvation
  A broken man found anxiety
  Lingering in the shadows of a siren's sedation
  
  Ever changing flower, wilting, never come to bloom
• 6. They All Deserve to Die (03:10)
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  I want a death, a hit
  A crime to commit
  I want to kill them all 'cause
  They all deserve it
  Alive and still I find that my grief's
  Wading through in an ocean of lies
  I can't involve her
  A town to slaughter
  While hiding in a mask
  But now I see the terror that exists
  In every mother and daughter
  
  I feel them slipping away
  The shears in my hand, admire the way
  I grip the blade with passion
  Look close and you'll see
  Swoons in dishonorable throats
  Beyond the shears is a devil that resides
  In the depths of my soul, in the blacks of my eyes
  
  Alive and still I find that my grief's
  Wading through in an ocean of lies
  I can't involve her and go to slaughter
  
  Systematic, they start to panic
  How they drop like rain, so pathetic
  But now they all cry in static
  Don't be dramatic
  No one hears you from below as I bathe in blood
  
  Crack the sky that's been folded into woven bone
  Drag them moon through the silence of frozen stone
  Sing the names that were etched in a trembling vein
  Flood the streets with the ache of a tailor's pain
  
  Looking at the blood, it lies in darkened crimson passion
  But not for love, for evil and obsession
  
  I want a death, a hit, a crime to commit
  I want to kill them all 'cause they all deserve to die
  
  Crack the sky that's been folded into woven bone
  Drag them moon through the silence of frozen stone
  Sing the names that were etched in a trembling vein
  Flood the streets with the ache of a tailor's pain
• 7. Oh My, How They Bled! (03:24)
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  Everyone, gather 'round, everyone
  Have we such a treat for you, it could be anyone
  Everybody take a seat, have you had much to eat?
  We are but the peasants providing your pleasantries
  
  Sweet, it's so sweet
  (Shall we have a taste?)
  Surely, just take a seat
  (Such a pleasant spread)
  Better now they're dead
  Should have seen them scream and, oh my, how they bled
  
  I've been waiting, patient, no information
  Stirring in silence with my deprivation
  Screaming, bleeding, watch what you're eating
  Getting too bloated from all that deceiving
  
  Darkness lurks yet we're dreaming of
  (Embers they'll remember as we)
  We'll feed the patrons with guests from above
  We'll devour the world, my love
  
  (We'll devour the world, my love)
  
  Carving out grace from the folds of your skin
  Salt in the wounds where the hunger begins
  Marinating sorrow in a ritual flame
  Seasoned with guilt as I swallow your name
  
  Bitterness braised in a funeral glaze
  Soaked on your tongue like a eucharist haze
  
  Everyone, gather 'round, everyone
  Have we such a treat for you, it could be anyone
  
  Darkness lurks yet we're dreaming of
  (Embers they'll remember as we)
  We'll feed the patrons with guests from above
  We'll devour the world, my love
  
  And I'll exact my revenge one day
  (One day they will all pay)
  So we'll reap this lot, as rot in the grave
  Please remember you were what you ate: shit
  
  Such a pleasant spread
  Better now they're dead
  Should have seen them scream and, oh my, how they bled
• 8. Born in Blood (03:17)
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  Made with love!
  Pray for the light, but hunger makes it sweeter!
  And as I sink into flesh, with silence feeling deeper
  I want to taste every tear that they gave!
  A flavor savored from their mouth to the grave!
  Made with love!
  Born in blood!
  
  Trembling fingers will walk on the skin of my victims!
  So pliable and yet so divine!
  Knock to say that you're ready!
  My fingers will steady!
  A blade meant to sanctify, no goodbye!
  
  Come now to feast, every bite's a treasure
  Forget to lеave, stay inside forevеr
  
  Charlotte, it's so good; watch them feed on themselves!
  (Look world) As they descend to Hell
  And now, with no one mocking me, Simon's luck is running out!
  Nothing more to scream about!
  
  Come now to feast, every bite's a treasure
  Forget to lеave, stay inside forevеr
  
  Disgusted with myself!
  It's all in my head, it's all in my head!
  Everything that I thought we would be is
  Dead...!
  
  Come now to feast, every bite's a treasure
  Forget to leave, stay inside forever
  
  Steady fingers (come now to feast) will waltz on the skin of my victims (every bite's)
  Until I have him dead in my sights! (a treasure)
  Kill the thoughts (forget to leave) that I render; the flesh is so tender! (stay inside)
  We'll never sleep ever, ever, ever! (forever)
  'Til I have his throat!
  Born in blood!
• 9. People Are Starting to Notice (03:51)
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  Panic, they're starting to notice
  I can tell by the way that they're darting their eyes
  Lies, echoing softly like whispers that pierce through the night
  Pacing back and forth
  For hours, feel the earth
  Ascending like a cloud
  Only to fall back down
  
  Stand tall, only to fall
  Thought it was working, it's like it was all a dream
  Fiend, lurking beneath like a shadow that watches me sleep
  
  I can see their eyes
  They've been craving what we've made them
  Eat away at depravity
  
  We've caused a panic
  
  You are what you eat, it's so sweet
  Watching them eat
  All of them weakened
  Now that they're poisoned
  Now that they're chosen
  All of them, pieces of me
  Broken is me
  Although a tailor, I can't sew this seam
  
  I can see their eyes, they've been craving what we've made them
  Eat away at depravity
  I can see reflections, they haunt me in the mirror
  Drink me clean of morality
  
  The town dissolves in a panic
  They turn to who they love
  "Director, please save us all!"
  So weak and fucking small
  
  A voice of treason
  A voice of filth and vermin
  Someone take his life
  I don't need a fucking sermon
  I long to watch him bleed
  Choking upon his audacity
  
  Should I kill? Should I wait 'til he's alone with me?
  Decaying hopes, set the asylum ablaze
  
  Foolish man, I think you should be counting your days
  
  I can see their eyes, they've been craving what we've made them
  Eat away at depravity
  I can see reflections, they haunt me in the mirror
  Drink me clean of morality
  
  People are starting to notice
  I can tell by the way that they're starting to cry
  Blood drips from their eyes
  Chaos ensues 'til they die
• 10. Delicate Twine (04:02)
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  Ghost light on the satin floor
  Just a phantom that I've always been waiting for
  Please embrace me with your blood and your ecstasy
  I've been waiting so patient but it's killing me
  Bloodlust fantasy
  Watching hopeless, stoic voices
  Kneeling frozen, no more choices
  Burning secrets, flesh like embers
  Just surrender, whispering softly
  Beckoning you to the grave
  
  Lies, open your eyes
  Just his disguise trying to kill me
  Blood, fall to the floor
  I can ensure, raiment so lovely
  Raiment so lovely
  
  Watching hopeless, kneeling frozen
  Burning secrets, beckoning you to the grave
  To take a life is divine
  These shears cut through flesh like it's delicate twine
  Trembling fingers they fail to grasp anything
  Learned you nothing or was I deceived?
  How you ruined my chance to feel sanctity
  Bury me with your blood underneath
  
  Lies, open your eyes
  Just his disguise trying to kill me
  Blood, fall to the floor
  I can ensure, raiment so lovely
  Lies, open your eyes
  Just his disguise trying to kill me
  Blood, fall to the floor
  I can ensure, raiment so lovely
  
  My soul was bare, underneath my hand
  But now emptiness filling me as I stand
  Bare to witness me
  With no sympathy
  For you ruined my chance to feel ecstasy
  
  Lies, open your eyes
  Just his disguise trying to kill me
  Blood, fall to the floor
  I can ensure, raiment so lovely
• 11. Always Hunted (05:01)
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  Just like the blood we're born in
  Promised and I swore that I'd keep away
  Look what we have become 'cause
  I'm without your love
  Thought I found a way
  
  Wait, it's hard to concentrate
  It looks just like her face
  But from the broken days of yesterday
  And now I face
  The truth that is in place
  I'm biding my time here just in case
  
  Now everything I've ever wanted
  Is another piece of my mind
  That's separate from the feeling that I'm always haunted
  By the ghost of you in my life
  
  And this entire time I have felt this fear
  What if she leaves me too?
  What if she lost her life with all of my darkness too?
  But now I see her body enamored
  By the shadow that has left her
  And the worst part's if she dies all alone
  She'll never notice
  She never noticed
  
  I'm choking on my last words
  Never thought I'd have to say to you
  My love, I have to bury you
  
  You say to me
  Waiting was virtuous
  I feel abandoned by everyone
  I feel abandoned by everyone
  Dream of me
  As life abandons you
  Forever haunted by you
  Forever haunted by you
  
  Now everything I've ever wanted
  Is another piece of my mind
  That's separate from the feeling that I'm always haunted
  By the ghost of you in my life
  
  Angel
  Falling down, down, down
  Baby, please
  Rest easy now
  
  With everything I offered
  Never was the lover that you need
  I thought you'd be a bother
  But I never thought that you'd fall from me
  
  Now everything I've ever wanted
  Is another piece of my mind
  That's separate from the feeling that I'm always haunted
  By the ghost of you in my life
  
  Wait, it's hard to concentrate
  It looks just like her face
  But from the broken days of yesterday
  And now I face
  The truth that I in place
  By the ghost of you in my life
• 12. Let Us In (04:14)
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  There was a tailor and his wife
  He thought he had a life but then
  He felt it slowly slipping away
  So when he tried to rebuild what he had
  He felt rage, and lust, and lost all humanity
  
  Angel
  Falling from the clouds
  Would you love me the same
  If my heart was to blame?
  Would you love me?
  Do you love me?
  
  Beacon of solace
  Teller of fibs
  I felt nothing but the steel
  Trapped inside of my ribs
  And he twists and turns
  It's cold but it burns
  And it drips down slowly
  Like the tears of my love
  
  And it drips down slowly like the tears of my love
  
  I thought the pain of my loss would surely end
  Now I'm screaming
  Not again!
  Not again!
  Not again!
  
  Holding still
  But I still feel nothing
  Hollow words that once meant something
  "I'm sorry I couldn't be devoid of emotion"
  
  Let us in!
  Let us in!
  Let us in!
  Bring me to realize the fool that I've been
  
  Let me die
  As she dies
  Look me in the eyes
  Was there ever any truth in your lies?
  
  You foolish boy
  You're the reason she's dead
  You took life with the blood on your hands
  Lost light give you agony
  You're the reason my life's been reduced to a fallacy
  
  The devil knocks and I scream her name
  "Lavender!"
  Charlotte, my love, I'm sorry I am to blame
  
  Holding still
  But I still feel nothing
  Hollow words that once meant something
  "I'm sorry I couldn't be devoid of emotion"
  
  Voices like the walls in my head in the halls
  I sought for vengeance blindly
  Now my sanity will fall
  Now death is looming near
  But I'm locked outside the gates screaming
  God let me in!
  Let me in!
  Let me in!
  
  Let us in!
  Let us in!
  Let us in!
  Open my throat and give the tailor your sin
  
  I never knew that such evil existed
  I always thought that the devil was a metaphor
  For profoundly immoral and malevolent happenings
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